NAM MYOHO RENGE KYO

The first time I became a shaman was the two years leading up to 2000. in 98 and 99 I was pummelled with visual ideas of triangles, circles, spinning, colorcodes, shapes and ideas that I didn't understand. I didn't pursue these things in an active manner. I believe these codes came to me from another source, a series of shapes, a visual language that in a momentary look, as much information is conveyed as if you had read a 200 page book.  I had no way to take this intervention seriously. No paradigm to understand what was happening and what the possible importance of this was.
I became obsessed with the following things after 2000.

Astronomy

Plants

Animals

Technology

Numerology

Symbolism/stories

Cycles and energy systems (robots and computers and then fountains)

Light and Optics / Color

Which led back to sound, rhythm, vibration

Which is funny because this all started with the magic wand wood wind vibrating bamboo reed

sax o phone.

I began experiencing the same thing again in 2010,'11 and I understand what is going on now, so I must continue and press on with this.
The main ideas here are that everything is vibration, the idea that you and I are not real is just as valid as the idea that we are.  And we are all one, not just all the people and the animals, but everything. every atom and the components which make up the atoms which are just vibrations of a string. The string is a vibration within a vibraton that was known to the ancient mystics as the music of the spheres.
Vibrations at all different frequencies, hertzian waves and non-herzian waves, photons behaving as waves, no energy is ever lost, only transferred.

My life fell apart during these second two years of awakening, but it couldn't have happened in any other way.  I lost my money, my house, my marriage, my dog, my family.  I had to scramble and I had no energy and no resources with which to scramble. Fatigue has set in for a lot of this.

Then I chant

NAM MYOHO RENGE KYO

I painted this for my mom during my first awakening in 1998. I had no idea. no idea until 2011 the significance of the subject matter of this early painting